The day after we returned from our trip, I got very sick. I spent three days in bed barely getting out to go to urgent care for a diagnosis and meds - which I hate taking, but was so grateful for this time! They kicked in and I was able to enjoy a wonderful Christmas with our families. Although I'm still plagued with constant dizziness and nausea - no fun.
I have to confess, I am having a difficult time saying good bye to 2008. I think it is my denial that I'm finally having to face. I had been hoping so much that somehow Stevenson would still come home this year - even after we got back from Haiti. But here we are on New Year's Eve and he didn't come home. I guess I'm just having a hard time accepting it and I am angry.
Well, regardless of how this day began with my not wanting to let go of 2008, as I look toward tomorrow and the new year, I do have a great deal of hope. There just is NO WAY that Stevenson can't come home in 2009, so I feel like I have a definite date to hold onto - he WILL be home before we ring in 2010. That may not sound like much solice to those of you who aren't intimately involved with international adoption, but it IS a comfort that many of my dear friends who are waiting to bring their babies home from China don't have - unfortunately, it probably won't happen for them this year - my heart goes out to them. May God grant us all faith and patience beyond the abilities of our earthly bodies....
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Chris, take gentle care. I'm so sorry the wheels are turning so slowly. I smile when I think of our first group photo with all three of your children on the couch! Sending you hugs and hope you're feeling better.
Jeana
Hi Chris! Check out our blog...we gave you an award! We're praying hard for Stevenson to come home SOON!
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